3 things that scare me
• Losing anything and everything
• Failure
• Snakes

3 people who make me laugh
• Anybody with sarcastic humour
• Silliest PJ
• G Khamba (go figure!)

3 things I love
• Love
• Niece
• Gummy bears

3 things I hate
• Suck ups
• Pseuds
• Uncertainty

3 things I don’t understand
• Mathematics
• Elections
• Craze for cricket

3 things on my desk
I am at home right now so…
• A fat fiction
• Bamboo plant in water
• My handbag

3 things I’m doing right now
• Trying to figure our life
• Taking up this tag
• Listening to music

3 things I want to do before I die
• See the world (cliché!)
• Bungee jump
• Be a good mother

3 things I can’t do
• Suck up. To anybody.
• Ask a guy out
• Calculate without using a calculator or my fingers

3 things I think you should listen to
• Baz Luhrmann – Everybody is free to wear sunscreen
• Yourself when you are laughing your heart out over a joke
• A child’s soft snore in her/his sleep

3 shows I watched as a kid
• Duck tales
• I dream of Jeanie
• Small wonder

3 things I want in a relationship
• Love
• Emotional security
• Space

3 physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to me
• Eyes
• Smile
• Cologne

3 of my favorite Hobbies
• Reading
• Playing out impossible scenarios in my head
• Tweeting

3 beverages I drink regularly
• Water
• Coffee
• Coke

3 things I like about myself
• I am intuitive; I can see it coming…
• Independent
• I stand up for what I believe in and for people I love

3 things I hate about myself
• I am hyper sensitive
• I worry too much about my tomorrows
• I am an extremist

3 of my everyday essentials
• Internet
• Food cooked by my Mum
• Water

3 things I am wearing right now
• Tee shirt
• Pajama pants
• Hair clip

2 truths and a lie: (figure it out)
• I am not what I seem to be
• I can cook meat
• I am not judgmental

*hugs*

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit – it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

*love*

• Got the MBA degree. Phew! Finally it’s over.
• Back home forever. Right now am amidst the conversance of home, language, place and everything.
• Like they say there is a first time for everything I am having my first time of being unemployed and job hunting. And let me tell you it is not a nice feeling.
• Couple of vacations right after the exams was fun. Total fun.
• Interned at LinOpinion. Mixed feelings on the experience.
• The feeling of ‘belonging’ is seemingly increasing. I have started to first examine if I can fit-into the place, the group etc in Professional, social and all kinds of spheres
• Meeting new people is still on an almost zero count.
• I am indifferent over many things including life. Good sign or bad I don’t know.
• Sometimes you realize how alone you are, and you start asking questions. You ask questions, because you want to know why life isn’t perfect. Because you believe, it should be. Because you assumed all along, that life will work out perfectly… everything will fall into place, eventually. And now there’s a slight hint of panic – when it suddenly dawned on me, that perhaps it might not work out.
• Maybe everyone doesn’t get a happy ending, maybe life doesn’t always get better, maybe there isn’t perfection for everybody.

*hugs*

25 random facts about me…Of course in random order!

1. I blindly believe in  zodiac signs. I think it tells you the kind of person you are dealing with.

2. I totally dig on Punjabi music. I love the dhol beats. It lifts up my mood anytime of the day makes me feel like dancing.

3. I cannot live with anyone in one room. Chennai made me realize that, I first stayed with 3 girls, then with two and now with one. By God, I cannot live with anyone.

4. I feel envious easily. If someone gets everything I ever wanted and I don’t, and know that I can never get it. I feel jealous.

5. I am a cleanliness freak. I cannot stand a little dirt in the room and cannot stand filthy people.

6. I am an internet junkie.

7. I don’t know what I want to do with my life even at 24.

8. I come from a family which eats non vegetarian atleast once a week and I am a pure vegetarian.

9. I love watching romantic and serious movies. I don’t watch action and horror movies.

10. I make sure I see my face the first thing when I wake up in the morning. I don’t know why.

11. Crowd makes me uncomfortable. Three is indeed a crowd for me.

12. I know how to distance myself from people I don’t want to be with.

13. I am bad at maintaining relationships. I hardly have any school, college friends etc.

14. I love adventure sports. Trekking is my favorite hobby and waiting to go bungee jumping and skydiving.

15. I knew eight languages until I almost forgot one language because of zero usage. Now I know seven.

16. I love Bangalore my city unconditionally. And literally get on to fight with people who talk bad about it.

17. I always wanted to be a boy as a kid. I was a tomboy minus the haircut. I had long hair from time immemorial.

18. I can withstand 40 degree of heat but not slight hint of cold.

19. I am a very skeptical person.

20. I am everything what I don’t look like.

21. Milind Soman has been my favorite bollywood/Fashion personality since I don’t know when. I have never adored anybody like him.

22. I love change. In almost everything.

23. Nine out of ten friends of mine are guys.

24. I have incisive memory. I know the dress I was wearing for my fifth birthday and the name of the girl who sat next to me during my first grade!

25. I love working out at the gym. Can’t wait to get to it!

Guilt is a horrible feeling to begin with… Guilt of not being there when your loved one needs you…Guilt of doing something you should not have done… Guilt of ignoring your blog is one such ones… This guilt makes you ache, suffer and nags you all the time for attention and some words!

I was embarrassed to open my blog for the fear of this guilt. I changed blog spaces just with the hope that I will start writing from now on continuously. And hope never fails right? I got a new blog URLfor myself and like H mentioned this might make the regular (?) readers confused ‘cos I have been changing my URL every now and then. But I cannot budge until I get the write name… I will experiment till then And this time I intend to stay. A little update on my life, like I always do

• Placements are NOT happening…. Thanks to all the meltdown, recession, pink slips blah blah.

• Time to become unemployed is not very far.

• Two months and one week more to go for the course to get over! YAY!

• Moved to a new place after staying in a house which was synonyms with hell, Now in a hostel where I was supposed to come eight months before. It’s all written isn’t it?

• Sometimes the way I get comfortable in this place scares me… I hope not to get used to this city or people. After all I need to get back to my home and my people.

• Getting to see some real politics in the college is overwhelming to say the least. I mean, at 20 you are already preparing for the real mean world out there, while am still struggling to cope with such things even after staying in THE company for three dirty years! *shudders*

• Honesty does NOT pay. Diplomacy pays!

• Public Relations is seemingly becoming more and more exciting and challenging. Waiting to get out there and kick some ass!

• However, ‘settling down’ somehow does not seem to be happening and its vexing.

• Nothing much other than that has really changed

Till I write again, Shalom! *hugs*

I have a lots about the year which will end in another few hours however, it’s more of a ‘things I shouldn’t do’ list that I will be carrying with me.

It’s been a rather weird year, weird in a bad sense. Quitting a well (?!) paying job, going against my parents, leaving home, coming to a strange land to stranger people and an unknown language, trying out some people management, trying to realize my dreams and most of all… living a lonely life. And for people who thought this year just flew by… I think I didn’t fly by fast enough for me.

In a nut shell not so good year. But I don’t want to forget the few good things that happened. We celebrated our first anniversary, of love and togetherness. Distance got me and mom closer than ever before, left my company rather I quit my lousy boss and nothing much I can remember.

Without brooding much I will welcome this year. Its gonna be a quiet, nothing grand and a kind of lonely New Year celebration for me. No usual church going at the midnight and paying for a good new year and wishing each other at mid night and spending the whole day of January 1^st with family.

New resolutions as such cos I won’t remember them by the time the month ends But few things I want to do this year:

· Stop whining and take life the way it comes. Because nothing and absolutely will change when you complain and fret over it but people around you will only see you as incapable and a whiner of nth degree.

· Get out of this place. Period.

· Spend more and more time with folks. Like Baz Luhrmann says “Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.”

· Judge better

· Hopefully ‘settle’ down

· Travel…

Happy New year everyone… Wish you all the love and luck.

Shalom!

Back after a long time. A tweet on twitter triggered this blog post.

Crush…infatuation…puppy love… now you know what I am gonna write about

I have had so many crushes through the years…

Do you catch a breath

When I look at you

Are you holding back

Like the way you do

‘Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away

But I know this crush

Ain’t goin’ away

Goin’ away

Crush # 1 – my first ever crush was my friend’s family friend and my neighbor. Err it’s the same guy! I was in class tenth around fifteen. His house was [still is I guess] diagonally opposite to mine. He was in class eleventh or twelfth and we had the same school timing and bus stop opposite to each other’s. my friends, one of whose family friend he was came to my place and all of us three left to bus stop together exactly when he left his place. He was tall around 6 feet, fair and had dimples and was a malayali. Today I know that language cos of him

Anyway we followed him every morning and more than that passed comments and made fun while we walked behind him! Thankfully he never complained to his mom, I still remember studying for my biology exam on the terrace just so that I would get to see him sadly, even to this day I haven’t talked to him and rarely see him.

Crush # 2 – This crush of mine stayed on for one full painful year. The longest ever. This happened after my class tenth exams when I and my sister went to hometown Shimoga. He was my cousin brother’s best friend. He was really tall around 6’2”, thin, and dumb looking [which I wouldn’t agree about then] I never talked to him, never met him in secret I did nothing but dreamt of him all day and thought it was true love and I have found my true love n all! I cried all day when I came back from native and joined my 11^th gosh! I missed him so much then… I started writing then. Wrote poems, lines, letters loads of things… I still have that green little diary I used to write all these and drew colorful hearts and flying ribbons

And then it all slowly wore out. Out of sight out of mind…And I was feeling bad I was falling out of ‘love’. Puppy love was all over and that little green book just stayed there out of sight too.

Remaining yarn in my next blog

Life is… what happens when you are busy looking for it.

Life is…is when you see there is no other choice but move on.

Life is…is when you realize in the dusk of some Tuesday how lonely you’ve become.

Life is…is when you know you have come too far to go back

Life is…is when faces unknown become an important part of your life.

Life is… is when you are tired of trusting the wrong people.

Life is…is when you say “I give up trying, let time take its course”

P.S: Blog title has nothing to do with the blog.

Air Deccan was probably India’s first low cost airline also the first airline to fly into the second tier cities in India, Capt. Gopinath’s aspired to make airline travel available for every Indian. Everybody who has travelled by Air Deccan knows the kinda problems they usually get ready to face. Endless reschedules, late arrivals, late take offs, icky customer service made Air Deccan one of the airlines people never preferred to go but nevertheless people travelled in it for the low cost ravel experience it offered. The merger of Air Deccan with Kingfisher was somehow a clever was the marketer’s contrive! The yellow and blue colours in the logo changed to bright and bold red, so did the services. If not great the airlines started doing a little better from where it originally began with. Even the passengers welcomed the new bold look and agile services.

I remember this trip I had to make with the Air Deccan where the 9:30 AM flight was rescheduled to around 2:00 PM and as a matter of fact we never got to travel in Air Deccan because we were shifted to Kingfisher as there were not enough passengers flying in the flight I had opted for.

The plug off of Air Deccan has its own pros and con, the 3,000 odd employees who are adrift but I guess they had to leave some day. The low cost airline is no more available to the customers as many other low cost airplanes have taken its place. But, the fuel charges in India are whopping and Air Deccan with its ‘low airfare’ philosophy would not have survived for long.

All this makes me wonder what does the future hold for a lot of brands under the name of acquisition, mergers etc. All in all a brand like Air Deccan now is a History.